I’ve said goodbye to many people, those drive-by impostors who come bearing fruits:warnings and lessons.
I’ve said goodbye without a wave, a note or song. As they escaped down my cheeks, washing away parts of me I should have cherished and valued.
Sifting through an old Facebook profile, unused for over 3 years, I clicked and erased, clicked and erased those I wish to forget. I can’t recall why I opened that door, where they could step freely into my space. A space I hold dear, but they see not as sacred.
I lost my job today! Yep! One of the greatest fears of my life I’m facng, single parent of two and jobless. Already I sense what I built crumbling around me! That 401k I cherished! The credit score I built and strived for. They made me proud, thinking some way, somehow I was providing, protecting us. Capable!
I, facing my fears but I can’t run away. I dare not cry, or crumble. But tonight, tonight I need to say goodbye, to potential, to the past, to who I was. Each time I felt it was erecting a foundation for a better tomorrow, it turned to naught. Oh the potentials! The possible friends! The longed for lovers!
Tomorrow is mayday, boots strapped, belt tightened kinda day.
Tonight is for goodbye!